Weary with Regret
Sheryl H. Boldt (Florida, USA)
THOUGHT FOR THE DAY
God’s mercy deserves my praise.
To turn regret into praise
O Lord, open my lips, and my mouth will declare your praise. – Psalm 51:15 (NRSV)
I’ll never be able to forgive myself. Just typing these words stirs up many emotions in me. The years of regret were strong; I wore them like chains. Sexual immorality and destructive choices had contributed to my already-low self-esteem. It has taken years, but the story of King David has helped me to accept God’s forgiveness and see myself in a positive light.
When the prophet Nathan confronted King David about his affair with Bathsheba, David sought and received God’s forgiveness. But if he hadn’t accepted God’s mercy, that sinful period could have defined the rest of his life. How different would David’s story have been had he chosen to live in self-condemnation? Would we know him as a man after God’s own heart? Probably not.
When we choose to hang on to our shame, others see us as guilt-ridden souls rather than people after God’s own heart. If we want them to see the relationship we have with God, we can pray as King David did after Nathan confronted him: “O Lord, open my lips, and my mouth will declare your praise.” Rather than growing weary with regret and sorrow because of our sins, we can open our mouths in praise to God.
Gracious God, help us to release our regrets and to open our mouths in praise to you. Amen.